Small Town Halloween

We just got back from taking the boys Trick Or Treating . And I have to say , it was the best Halloween I have ever seen . We live in a mining town in AZ , so it is very safe . The whole town was out ! It seemed like a Halloween from the 50's or from an old Halloween family movie .
Lucas was of coarse Spider man ( who wasn't ) and Jeremy was a bear .Everyone acted like Lucas was the only Spider man . And all was as nice as could be . It was like I was dreaming .
We first went down our block , then came home and handed out candy , while I got the little one to bed . Mind you our bags where half way full . And not with crap candy but the good stuff ! Then Lucas and I went down to the streets where EVERYONE was at . I only took down 3 blocks of that , and we were very tired . So, back home , we came with now a full bag of good candy . Very good Halloween . Wish it could be this safe everywhere . Now to try to get Lucas to bed .LOL!!! Good luck , huh ! :)

Numb

The winds of change are upon me . My Dad has been sick with Emphysema for about 10 years now. And now the final stages are kicking in . This is very hard and probably harder on me because I am an only child . The only way I can truly vent is here on my blog .It is too hard to talk about . yes , I have my husband but it is hard for him to talk about it too .

A couple of weeks ago Mom had to rush Dad to Tucson , V A hospital . He was having strange blood pressure readings . Very low and then spiking High . Breathing not good too . The Dr were afraid he had phenomena . ( Thank God he did not ) He stayed there for 4 days .

During all this my Mom is becoming someone I do not know . Very hateful and saying things that cut to the bone . I am sure it is the stress of everything but it still hurts.

Dad told me that at this point , he does not go to the hospital to get better but to help cope . He is ready to go . He is just waiting . They say that he could go at any time . But he does not want me to know that the Dr's have said this .

I know all are appointed a time to die but his is hard .Mainly the treatment from them . I will be glad when this is all over . I know that sounds bad but I am tried of seeing him go through this .
What does emphysema do ? Well , it is a slow suffocating death . You have no energy . It becomes hard to walk , talk , eat , go to the bathroom and bath . All takes too much energy . You end up on oxygen 24 / 7 and most of the time in bed . Most die from heart failure or coughing and chocking to death , then some go in their sleep . It is not a pretty thing . So , if you smoke .... think twice . Do you want to end up like this ? Not only is it hard on you but think of your family .

PMS + A SCREAMING 3 YEAR OLD = AHHHH!!!!!

I do not know what has gotten into my 3 year old ! He has become a hard to handle child ! I swear he is 3 going on 16 . He screams all the time , whines and tells me and my husband to " shut up " . I am ready to call in supernanny ! And yes , we desipline him . Nothing is working ! Help ! I feel like I am failing as a Mom :( . Thank God the one year old is good ( hopefully he will stay that way ) The two are like night and day . The bad thing is they already fight . I need a vacation !

FOR THE LOVE OF FREEDOM

The other day , I was blog surfing and surfing on other sites and began to find many blogs from our American soldiers. To see their pictures and read their stories , my heart filled with pain and tears began to flow down my cheeks . We do not even know what all they have and are going through for us . They have a deep love for mankind and our country . The have and are putting thier lifes on the line every moment to protect us . Sacrificing their minds and body , all for love ! How many of us can say that we would do that ? The Bible says we are to love our neighbors as our self , and no greater love then those that lay down thier life for their brother . I love our soilders , pray for them daily and want to say " Thank you !!!!!" I challenge you to thank them when you see them . Remember what all they are doing for you ! Only one other loved us as much and more , Jesus Christ .